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Hi Internet. I should be asleep but I don't want to. Because I've developed a crush? and it confuses and delights and frustrates and saddens me? How does love work? How do feelings function? Why does he have to use awesome snelling body wash, and why do I want to bury my face in his chest and hold him and never let go? How do I have the patience to wait for him until he's ready to move on from his ex? How do I swallow the lump in my throat when he talks about her? How do I deal with all this on top of schoolwork?